Welcome

This is going to be an experiment in re-awakening my sexuality by sharing memories of past adventures and stories of new experiences.  I have no idea how well this will work, but it certainly can't hurt.  So let me introduce myself.

I am currently a middle-aged married woman with some issues regarding sex.  Considering my history, it's not surprising that I have issues, but that doesn't mean that I have to continue to let them screw up my husband and I's sex life.  I don't want to go into details right now, but basically I was raised by a fanatical Christian mother who considered sex disgusting.  As a young child, I was mildly molested by an older cousin for a couple of months.  When I was a freshman in college, I lost my virginity by being violently raped by a group of young men.  In my late twenties, I was date raped by a friend of a friend.  In my thirties, I developed a cyst in my abdomen that made sex excruciatingly painful.  Even after I finally got the cyst removed, I still associated sex with pain.

So... I have a number of issues to work through.  However, I do have some fun stories about sexual adventures that I had in between all the bad things that happened to me. Hopefully expressing my feelings about the negative sexual experiences I had will prove cathartic, and re-living the good experiences will re-kindle my interest in sex.  And maybe reading about my experiences will help others in some way.